HOLY CRAP!!!!

Wowowowow it has been a freaking long time since i last posted on my blog! i'm such a bad blogger well i'm posting this one just for nicole cause i'm crazy about her! lol so here you go babe new post just for you!!!!

Life's rough sometimes...

First let me say that i'm sorry for not posting in a week! It's not like i have been super busy just super lazy! Alot has happened since i last posted first lets start with the most recent thing.
yesterday i lost my cell phone. i put it in my back pocket and didn't realize that the pocket had a cell phone sized hole in it! so from somewhere between walking to the library from my car at icc it fell out! now anyone who has lost or had their phone stolen you know how i feel! its not the end of the world but it sucks. All my numbers that i need and all my pictures and the stupid little memory card all gone! it sucks. let me reiterate it blows! haha sorry for being random, but i'm at panera and there is a table of middle aged ladies and they are the loudest most annoying people ever! haha sorry they are just being loud and they have such annoying laughs! I wish they would read my blog! anyways i lost my phone but luckily i have a back up phone but it doesn't have any numbers so you should call or text me so i can have your number once again!
So i've been struggling lately with the fact that God has control of everything. So much i just want to be like dude i got this and do it myself. Its hard for me to realize that i cant do everything on my own. its so hard to just sit back and let god take care of things. Like my phone for instance, so much i want to just be pissed that i lost the stupid thing and just forget about it and not even worry or give it up to god. The thing thats wrong here is that i don't trust god that he will take care of it. If i just leave it up to him he'll take care of everything. I just struggle sometimes!!!!!!!
Gosh those women are annoying! i think i should go sit next to them and start laughing! the funny thing would be i'm by myself. :)
So i'm ready to go to kansas city. Life here is alright but as of lately my parents and i have been clashing heads. I want to use the house just like a hotel and obviously its not working out for them! They don't ever tell me anything about whats going on or where they are, i don't ask because i think if its important they'll let me know. so i do the same to them and i guess they get pissed about it. i know most of the time its my responsibility to check in and give them that courtesy but if i forget they could atlest call me and see whats up. i won't care i promise you wouldn't interrupt me or anything! well... its raining outside...illinois weather blows.

Bo Sox Rox!!!!

So the red sox won again today! that means we're awesome!!!! So i had class today then i ate lunch with nicole at carlos o'kellys. it was alright then i went to work and double my production compared to monday and tuesday. Then came home and cleaned. Then nicole came over and we watched half-baked! great movie dave chappel at his best. Good stuff busy day tomorrow lots of work! Have a sweet rest of the night and don't fall out of bed! Remember to pray for baby will. Peace out!

Birthday!!!

So today was my birthday and i have to say it ranks among the top 5 birthdays in my life. Funny story. my mom thought it would be nice to buy me and the office lunch for my birthday so she orders monicals pizza for me and told me to pick it up. So i show up to monicals in morton where i work and tell them i'm there to pick up the order. and they tell me that they don't have the order. So i'm like are you sure you dont have my order? so i call my mom and tell her they dont have the order and she swore she called. then i ask her what number she called and it wasn't the morton monicals. She called washington monicals. it was pretty funny, only on april fools day. Everything got straighten out and i got my pizza. :) Then i went to "Big O's" visitation. He was an awesome guy its sad that he isn't here anymore. I'll miss him. Then softball practice, then instead of having a family dinner i ended up hanging out with nicole. It was sweet we went to panara and ate then hung out for a couple of hours lol. she is pretty awesome. :) So i read a couple of different blogs and one is a red sox/ yankees blog about the rivalry. They had a couple april fools day posts my favorite was a post about the sox and yanks swapping phil hughes for clay buckholtz. I really like phil hughes hes one of my favorite players so i was like sweet!!! but alas it was a joke. the other was goofy quotes. i stole some of them but give credit to soxandpinstripes.com

"My first start was terrible, so I'm going to retire and go to graduate school for Women's Studies"- Brett Myers.

"I'm shipping up to Boston tomorrow!"- Eric Gagne.

"I have AIDS"- John Rocker

"I'm a virgin"- Derek Jeter

"Cynthia, I told Jose he could move in with us until his book starts to sell."- Alex Rodriguez

"I just won a beauty pageant"- Kevin Youkilis

"This year, I will not hit well against the Yankees"- David Ortiz and Manny Ramirez

"I feel so bad about talking about my contract publicly, so I'm going to play this year for free" - Jonathan Papelbon

"If Hillary wins, I'll support her"- Curt Schilling

"I never used HGH on April 1st"- Andy Pettitte

"I bet my wife that I could out-throw her"- Johnny Damon

"I can't believe I'm still not 40 yet"- Orlando Hernandez

"Mike Mussina scares me"- Frank Thomas

my favorite is the one by johnny damon that guy has an arm like a rocking chair. he couldn't hit second base from third. Anyways thanks to all for the birthday wishes and i got the bestest card ever it was from the kholers it was a teenage mutant ninja turtles card. it is freakin sweet i'll post a picture of it. Much love!!!

Opening Day!!!

So i'm sitting at buffalo wild wings watching baseball!!! today is a good day. Tomorrow is my 21st birthday so i'll be doing nothing! lol not really into that stuff so its just another birthday for me. Red sox play tomorrow. Going for win number two behind dice k. i'll post later today!

Dinner for 11?

No i'm not posting about the last super. this was my experience for dinner tonight. Has anyone ever eating with 11 people at one regular sized dinning room table before? Well after tonight i can say that i have. I ate dinner with Nicole and her entire family minus one. It was her mother and father, Christina, Nicole, Michael, Ellen, and Mary Grace. her older sister Angela wasn't there but her boyfriend Ted was. He seems like a cool kid. Then their family friend brother Leo was their from Chicago. He has a sweet name and a sweet calling he does ministry for homeless people in Chicago. Then the neighbor was there also. And then there was me. The whole time i was nervous about eating properly and not talking with food in my mouth and what not. Half way through the meal i realize that the dinner table is for telling stories, cracking Irish jokes, and laughing. Which all can be done with food in your mouth. If you had something to say you had to say whenever you could find a spot to say it whether you had just taken a bit or not. After dinner brother Leo shared a reflection from the easter season and then we prayed together which i thought was very cool. In my family growing up it was just me and my mother so having a prayer time together was not on the list. I think that when i have my family that we will all say prayers together i think its sweet like that. I was very glad that Nicole's family accepted me for who i am and even let me join in on their prayers. She has a wonderful family and she is pretty awesome herself. Tomorrow i have this ridiculous band concert thing i agreed to participate in i know it will be a good experience for me but i guess i'm just not feeling it. The concert is on Sunday at 2 if you wanna show up we are all going to get together and worship America!!!! Nah, it should be fun. Well Sunday equals first day of baseball in America so get excited folks cause i know i am. I'll give updates on my fantasy teams on here too. sorry for the long post have a great day. Also one other thing Nicole's relative recently had twins and they were emergency c sectioned one of the boys died his name was Samuel the other boy is will and he is surviving but needs prayer so if you could join me that would be sweet! thanks have a sweet rest of the day!
(and if any English majors read this please don't hate on the grammar!)

Sleepy....

Hey whats up? Sorry i didn't post yesterday. I ended up spending the whole night with my friend Nicole who is amazing by the way. We went to Panara hung out then walked by the riverfront on the E. Peoria side. We did illegal stuff like there was a sign that said keep off and we walked on it anyway! I'm such a rebel! then i continued to try and impression her with the vast knowledge of Beastie Boys lyrics. I'm sooo0 black! haha then i was so tired by the time i got home i crashed. So yesterday was opening day of baseball and my sox had a sweet game and had the comeback to win it. I'll have to admit i didn't think they had it in them. My pick this year is the sox but i think the tigers will have a good shot too. that lineup is stacked. Then today the sox played again today and didn't fair so well. They lost due to a not so hot performance by Lester. He'll be a good pitcher but he's still young. He had cancer two years ago and has recovered to pitch in the majors again, cool story you should check it out. Well i'm tired so i'm going to bed but i'll be sure to post tomorrow. New favorite song is "I'm Yours" by jason marz. its sweet reminds me of Nicole.

D.C. meets As the deer?

So last night i was messing around with my guitar and played my version of as the deer. The chorus is simple, "you alone are my strength my shield, and to you alone will my spirit yield." Didn't really have a bad day yesterday but there was some stress, but for some reason in the middle of playing this song this peace comes over me. Some times i feel like i forget that God has my back. This usually happens when i start thinking that i got this and i can do it myself. I can not live this life on my own. I need God. I think its awesome how when i think i got it, God helps me out and reminds me that i'm nothing. There is something awesome about being humbled. Anywho i've been listening to Dashboard Confessional lately. There is a song of their dusk and summer album called Reason to Believe. Its a pretty sweet song but there is something about the bridge that gets me.
These are the lyrics, " I have reason to believe That I have victories to taste I can feel them on my teeth Upon my lips And in my chest I can roll them on my tongue
They almost supplement the feat I feel the tension in my lungs And every move is filled with my resolve to Breathe."
I'm moving to Kansas city in the fall to go to school to study ministry with an emphasis in music. The reason these words excite me is that is that knowing God has my back it makes me think that i can do awesome things with my life. Its my dream that i'll be an awesome leader at a great church with a great family. I'm dreaming big so God is gonna supply the demand.